I wish I couldn't dream

Last night, I was stupid and decided to go see "Tyson's" choir concert. It may have been too soon. Yes, I may have teared up a bit. But I think I was pretty strong. Until this morning. I've been feeling so blue so far today.

Last night I had 3 different versions of the same dream. I was doing some sort of choir thing with every one from the Singers, including "Tyson," and we were travelling. But at the same time we were still attending classes from school. "Tyson" and I had a weird relationship with each other, where we didn't really talk to each other, but we admired each other from afar. And "Tyson" would eventually shy away from his girlfriend, and we'd always end up together in the end. In one of the dreams, we were engaged, but that's besides the point.

And now I'm left feeling like crap. My subconscious is trying to get my hopes up, telling me that there may still be a chance that something like this could happen. When in reality, it seems less likely. For all I know, his girlfriend and him could be really serious, and he could propose right when she gets home.

But nonetheless, I still let my stupid subconscious get my hopes up. I'm just setting myself up for greater disappointment that I don't need. At all.