He seemed just fine until today. At the current moment, I really don't know if I want anything with him anymore. If he's just going to be a..horn-dog...then I just can't be here. I'm done with playing around. I'm done with "hooking up." I want a real man, a real relationship based off of something pure and true. I thought that's what I was seeing in him, but I guess I was wrong.
He's just too young. He's got the mind of a 15 year-old. And I've got the mind of a 40 year-old. I just don't see how this is going to work out.
I just don't know what to do now. Tell him off right now? Or wait until Saturday, when I can explain things in person? But what are his expectations for Saturday? Because all I really want to do is just... talk. Talk, have some fun, watch a movie, run the town. But mostly talk. I want to get to know him. Know who he is. All this...other stuff that he wants is just not satisfying. There's more to a relationship than just kissing, and he should know that. He's nearly 22, for crying out loud.
I'm afraid that he's forgot all teachings while on his mission. Principles, Doctrine, right from wrong...What happened to that boy I met, who wanted me to start attending church again, to get me to start praying more? I want him back. Not this boy who's fallen back into his old habits before his mish.
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