Not like...love love, but like..on the scale from 1 (crinkle) to 10 (marry me) i'm about a 6. I'm head over heels for this guy, and i totally shouldn't be. i know that he doesn't feel the same way..I'm just a little girl with a huge crush, i guess. It's sad...i can't stop thinking about him, i want to talk to him...but i can't. i just cant.
and it's weird, this crush. It's not at all like how I felt for zack before we started dating. with zack it was just a huge, frilly infatuation. this is different. unexplainably different. and i like this feeling...but only when he's actually talking to me. without him in the picture, i just feel kind of lost? i dunno. it's weird.
but i deleted him from my phone. i can't let this continue. i can't keep this feeling up when nothing is going to come back my direction. i can't talk to him anymore. i can't see him anymore. it's impossible to keep living like this.
